The Story Behind the Story – The Secret Confessions of a Lover
I am very happy and satisfied that I wrote this book. I feel much enriched after writing this book. I wrote it so that people can believe in Love and be reassured that it is not an extinct emotion. At a time where lust and materialism is ruling the world, I want love to win its place back. ‘The Secret Confessions of a Lover’ carries a message of love.
My journey has been quite interesting. I never thought that I would write a book but I wrote it without even realizing that I am writing it. I have had the habit of journaling since my childhood days. I have been a private person who would not share her feelings with anyone so I wrote my feelings and experiences in a journal. Journaling got exciting when I fell in love and started a relationship with my beau. Every single day I had something to write. I filled the pages with the breathings of my heart.
I was so much in love and had so much to share. I shared it all with my journal as I needed an outlet. 
I ought to paint those beautiful feelings with colourful words which gave life to the blank pages in my journal. It continued for years. I grew into a woman from a teenager writing the journal of my love. Life got busy after completing my education with work. I was caught up in the treadmill of life and time passed working hard to excel in my career but things have to come to a halt when you are running too fast. It happened to me. I fell ill and I had to take a break. I was quite sick for some time and had to be at home resting at all time.
Being a workaholic, idle time was a punishment for me. I started to blog and started working as a freelance feature writer. I still had lot of time at my disposal. One day while organizing my redundant stuff, I came across all my journals, which were buried deep in my bed box. I took them out and started to read them every day, it made me very happy. While I was reading it, I decided to type it all and organize it as a single document. When I started working on it and covered some distance through it, I had the urge to write a book out of it. I wove a story with the help of my experiences.
It took me three years to complete that work. However, the book had no ending and I did not think that the world will be interested in my love story. I tried to give it a typical love story commercial ending but was not happy with it, so I kept it away for a while, thinking if my journal is destined to be a book, my mind will be presented with the idea to give it the perfect ending. However, just to test the waters, I sent the manuscript to a few publishing houses, who obviously rejected it and directed me to their self-publishing arm. I stopped thinking about the book.
I recovered and got back to work. I got a contractual job in Goa, a beautiful coastal state in India. It is the perfect sanctuary for writers and spiritual seekers. Goa is the place where my love realized into God. The place had a mystical effect on me. I had new and wonderful experiences that I wrote down every single day. Then one fine day, I came across a book by Robin Sharma, ‘Discover your Destiny’, that book moved me and I read the complete ‘The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari Series’ by Robin Sharma. I experienced a paradigm shift in my thinking and life by the time I finished the books.
After my work contract ended, I was free for some time so I decided to rework on my book. I practically chopped off, half of the book and re-wrote it. That was the effect of my reading, I had to write something that my heart would agree on, I had to be authentic. But it still had no end. I kept it away again. I resumed a new job and got busy with it. One evening the wish to publish the book crept into my heart and even though it did not have an end yet, my search for a good editor began.
I had this belief that if it is my destiny that this book will see the light of the day then I will meet the right people who will help me complete this project. I spoke to three-four editors and did not have to wait too long for the person who would become the editor of the book. I spoke to her over the phone and the first question, I asked her was, “Do you believe in Love?” because this book is all about love. She said, “Yes” and we decided to meet. I liked her in our first meeting and we decided to work together.
She read the manuscript and suggested few additions, while doing that wrote the best parts of the book and trimmed it quite a bit. I created an ending but was not happy with it yet again. My editor also did not like it and I am glad she did not approve it because the ending, which I subsequently
wrote, could not be more perfect. I was both satisfied and elated with it. Writing the book has been an enriching journey for me.
It has been a process of self-discovery through wonderful experiences. While writing I indulged in lot of introspection, which helped me gain the wisdom that I would not have got otherwise. I wrote the book in parts and discovered and gathered many parts of myself. It made me travel inside me and connect with myself. ‘Secret Confessions of a Lover’ is inspired from my love story and has been woven with the threads of beautiful experiences and thoughts. Experiences that I gained being a keen observer of human beings, their emotions and relationships.
